Going down head first

She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even knows she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

If judgement looms under every steepleI
f lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

He is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction


Its like they are reading my mind or something. I'm surrounded by people but i am completely alone. Nobody has any idea that i am in deep depression or that i've cried myself to sleep for the last month and a half. i say i am fine but i am a complete liar. I hate fake people..sure i say i am hurting and then all i get is fake sympathy. Where were they when i really needed them? Why werent they there when i didn't need them? You never ever talk to me but you expect me to believe that you care now??? i don't think so. i can't take the heartache anymore. i can't keep fooling myself to believe that even though i don't get the big ceremony or the people congratulating me i'll be fine but i'm NOT! This hurts more then anything ever has before. there is nothing that can make me feel better about this. I hate being around people who are talking about graduating. or even just people because i don't want them to ask me what i am going to do. I AM GOING TO DO NOTHING! I have nothing to celebrate because i accomplished nothing.
Its so sad to know nobody has any idea what i am going through. Nobody how much pain i am actually in. This words don't even truly express what i am going through. Whatever. i'm done